Job Entry #7
"It just makes me want to cuss...
But that wouldn't help now would it? I think I'll pray instead."
Stumbling for ways to verbalize and teach biblical truth that I have known for quite sometime in ways that are understandable and connective to people is a real process for me - some call it revelation. Just know it is a process that is so awkward but so very necessary because it forces me to listen to God say what He has to say to me first, without anybody else in mind. In that way I have to take it to heart. Here are the recent ones...
"Just because what I am feeling is real, does not mean what I am feeling is reality."
I can frame that same truth in a different context, but retain and teach the same important principle.
"Just because I am feeling like this does not mean I am right to think, talk and act like this."
Now, anybody who knows me knows that I believe both of those statements to be completely healthy and true. I guess since I wrote them I should have no problem living them, right? I WISH! To be hopeful though, I'm not far off from getting there, so I'm not a total loss, but every since Job's version of the Hunger Games and his unstable friends invaded my world I have had to revisit those two particular truths to help me connect at some level to Eliphaz, Bildad, and Zophar. I do not like where we have connected. The first couple of times I read their contemptible "Jobalogues" I distanced myself from them quickly and decidedly. I said to myself, "I do not like you guys - or guys like you." Finally I had to ask myself why? But I knew the answer - it was because of fear. I was afraid that I could be them. I was afraid that I had already been them, and would now have to do something about it - like repent and change. So I tried to distance myself from them because of how they made me feel about me. Doesn't make it right though. Nonetheless, there it was, Eliphaz the Temanite, Bildad the Shuite, Zophar the Naamathite, and Steve the Reunionite. It just makes me want to cuss...
But that wouldn't help now would it? I think I'll pray instead.